Well, if you would have asked me a few years back. I would be asking the same question. I had some time to do some soul searching to find myself and who I am. It wasn’t by my own choice if my ego had anything to do with it. Usually it’s the ego that will put up the fight to stay as you are. When it’s your inner self, screaming for change. That was the start of the real Zoey James emerging to be true. True to myself that is and I am still searching. Would I say that my ego is gone, not at all? Your ego doesn’t go away it just takes a backseat. The ego peek its little head out here and there wanting to get back in the driver seat. I knew that I enjoyed my inner self stepping forward and taking over. The inner self is nothing like your ego. She or he is gentle with you and loving of everything about you. The ego is possessive, jealous, insecure do I need to name more? This fight that the ego and inner self go through is a real bitch some times. The ego is telling you everything is all good it’s like when you put the short skirt on. The thing is you know it’s too short or should I say too small. The ego will tell you to wear it anyway but your inner self will reflect back to you what you already know but you ignore it. The inner self reason for stepping forward in the first place is to give balance. You won’t get balance from learning to juggle your work relationships and so forth. The balance comes from the two; ego and your inner self. When the two can coexist it’s pretty cool.
Well, they can call me a lot of things but b**ch ain't one. My Mother always made it clear that knowing what you want does not make you a b**ch. I have always known what I want but never had the right people surrounding me to get it. My girl Zoey says it's not about the people at first. She's always saying that it starts with you first. In my head I'm thinking oh really then she says something like "Yes really". Of course I'm thinking did she just read my mind. Apart of me knows shes right it's the mind set that you have about yourself and what you can do. If you can't see yourself doing it on your own then why would the universe send you, your like minded family. You know your people that support and push you in the direction that you need to be. See Zoey and Cassie have been that for me. I know that I give them the most problems but it's out of love. I love these girls as if we are like blood sisters. The dopiest thing about these girls is they don't make no fuss of all my thickness. That's right I'm curvy and have two degrees and working on a third one. That last part was for anybody looking for a smart wife. The best part about this relationship I have with these girls is it's so mature and I desperately needed it.
Cassie Reed the plain Jane out of the group. Now I know your probably saying why would that be of any interests. Well you know you have to have that one friend that pops out the cake when things are going left. You know the one who spice it up when you can't. The quite one of the group but pit bull when needs to be. Well maybe not a pit bull that might be my girls Zoey and Monique. Well Zoey is classy she is so sweet but get on her bad side and it's over. You kinda of wish you didn't messy up her whole Eckhart Tolle oneness thing. Monique just tells it like it is. When you think about it she's right for the most part. If she didn't have a whole lot to work on her own oneness she could be the next Iyanla Vanzant. Well, for myself I like to think a little Bill Gates I'm that good with the numbers. I'm obsessive compulsive that's how good I am with the numbers. Which Zoey has to remind me every so offend that nothing has to be on the nose.
Plain Jane ****
Ex- College ball player
It's a lot of things I could wish or hope for but I like to start with what I'm grateful for. See I could start with my flashy car but I'm not that shallow. Besides I don't have flashy cars but I have a nice one. The kicker is that I could have my pick of a lot of things. My father would always say that "it's not that you have the choice to pick but how they make you feel." I guess he was saying you pick them but if they make you feel like shit maybe he or she is not the one. So I'm single at the moment dating here and there. I'm just not sure if I found someone that makes me feel that way. If we are being real with each other it's about how you feel about yourself. When you don't feel good about you, you will allow someone to make you feel like shit. I'm a man and I ain't got time to be sitting in my ego tripping over my own insecurities. So why would any woman think that I would put up with hers. It's a balance that most people think can't be done in relationships. Relationships are not just romantic you make relations every day. If your not dealing with your own ego and insecurities and try bringing that to a relationship. Sit back and see how fast those relationships burn out. With all that mess you can't help but to be drained.